Monday, April 26, 2010

May is Around the Corner

Wow - I read that last posting, talk about a bad day! While the same old fight still goes around our house I'm dealing with it better (on most days) than I was before!

In a month we'll be heading to Pittsburgh - my first time there - for Pete and Tara's wedding. We're looking forward to a fun trip and getting ready to make out motel reservations. We have decided to drive so it will be a good time.

Erik only has 29 school days left... it is almost the end of his sophomore year and we're looking at colleges and preparing for the future. On May 31 he will be 16 years old. I swear, I blinked and he went from being a baby to driving. He's almost done with driver's ed. Over the weekend he competed in the state piano competition and we went to an Eagle ceremony for one of his close friends. I confess, I cried through most of it. Brian makes it through (and he's usually a presenter) with no tears or strong emotions but it always makes me tear up.

This summer will be busy, fun and amazing. Probably not as much so as last summer, but we'll all be enjoying it as a family =)

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Something Less Than Harmonious

It has been a somewhat difficult week for us. Sometimes Brian and I have the same argument several times with no resolution. That's the case right now. We have different expectations of people and some times I expect better of people than they can ever be. I'm sad and disappointed, and just feeling let down and almost abused because my expectations weren't met. It is difficult and complicated for me to understand WHY people would be mean and nasty for the sake of being mean and nasty. It is also challenging for me to continue to be nice to people who are repeatedly rude for no good reason. I'm hoping that the spring air will help me to get some of the bad feelings out of my system, but for the moment, I just need to be away from people who have no regard for my feelings.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Spring Fever

I just can't help myself. For me there is something about spring, about longer days, sunny afternoons, dark mornings, croaking frogs, blooming flowers. Something that makes me feel silly and free and excited to see what lies ahead.

It is hard for me to be at work or class during this time, sometimes its hard to fall asleep, and it is incredibly hard to stay indoors... they say that we might have thunderstorms this afternoon, maybe more tomorrow and possibly even a few on Wednesday. It feels exciting. Deep in the summer the storms are more bothersome, and while they promise brief relief from the heat, there is something dangerous and powerful in the spring storms that is so much more fascinating. Hopefully I'll be able to get some work done this week!