Tonight is our neighbors annual 3rd of July party. Brian and I are very much looking forward to going. This will represent 4 years since the first time we slept in our house.
Sorry about the doom and glum message earlier in the week. I have decided that, even though the decisions that have been made are not my decisions to control, I am still not going to endorse or condone them. I think it would be easier for me to accept if everyone involved was happy, but that is definitely not the vibe from any of the involved parties.
Today's special note: if you have to lie to anyone, in any way about the relationship that you are in, you need to take a BIG step back and look at things.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Monday, July 1, 2013
It's Not Always Easy
It has been a challenging year for "family" in our house. One of Brian's brothers is making some decisions it is very difficult for me to support. We want everyone to be happy - but the thing is, he gives "lip service" to being happy, but doesn't seem like himself.
Brian's grandparents have moved to Assisted Living and the family has spent the last 8 months selling the business antiques and boxing up the family antiques. Brian and I don't really want or need anything, but that is often seen as rude - so we have tried to participate, but we love people, not things - so it has been a challenge.
Everything feels super strained to me. I am struggling with family decisions about living arrangements, what people are supporting or not supporting, and most of all, a level of unrest with those not in our home. It's funny, you would think all of this undercurrent would strain Brian and I as well, but we feel closer than normal, to me. It is difficult - while I am enjoying having my "little family" home together for the summer, preparing to celebrate Brian's completion of grad school in August and mine in March I am really struggling with the outside influences on our lives.
As many (most) people know my first marriage was very difficult and painful. By the time that we had reached the 4 year mark, I knew I had made a terrible mistake. Brian and I will celebrate four years of marriage in a little more than 2 months. These have been the best, easiest, happiest, most loved four years of my life. Even with our current struggle and my dissatisfaction with extended family I am so happy that we are together; I just wish that there was some acknowledgement of bad decisions elsewhere.
As announced a few weeks ago during a church service - love is blind and marriage is an eye opener.
Brian's grandparents have moved to Assisted Living and the family has spent the last 8 months selling the business antiques and boxing up the family antiques. Brian and I don't really want or need anything, but that is often seen as rude - so we have tried to participate, but we love people, not things - so it has been a challenge.
Everything feels super strained to me. I am struggling with family decisions about living arrangements, what people are supporting or not supporting, and most of all, a level of unrest with those not in our home. It's funny, you would think all of this undercurrent would strain Brian and I as well, but we feel closer than normal, to me. It is difficult - while I am enjoying having my "little family" home together for the summer, preparing to celebrate Brian's completion of grad school in August and mine in March I am really struggling with the outside influences on our lives.
As many (most) people know my first marriage was very difficult and painful. By the time that we had reached the 4 year mark, I knew I had made a terrible mistake. Brian and I will celebrate four years of marriage in a little more than 2 months. These have been the best, easiest, happiest, most loved four years of my life. Even with our current struggle and my dissatisfaction with extended family I am so happy that we are together; I just wish that there was some acknowledgement of bad decisions elsewhere.
As announced a few weeks ago during a church service - love is blind and marriage is an eye opener.
Friday, May 31, 2013
Not a Baby Anymore
Erik turns 19 today. It seems almost surreal. I swear he was a baby just a few weeks ago!
Tonight we are taking he and his friend Nick up to Council Bluffs to see Public Enemy, Ice Cube, De La Soul and LL Cool J. It should be a really fun night!
This weekend Brian has a 25 mile scout ride, we have many church responsibilities and it is finals weekend for school. Brian only has one class to finish and he'll be done with his MBA - the time has REALLY flown and his parents are so proud of him for going back and finishing his education and pursuing a masters. It will be exciting to see what the next 5 years holds for us. I'm sure there will be many adventures!
Tonight we are taking he and his friend Nick up to Council Bluffs to see Public Enemy, Ice Cube, De La Soul and LL Cool J. It should be a really fun night!
This weekend Brian has a 25 mile scout ride, we have many church responsibilities and it is finals weekend for school. Brian only has one class to finish and he'll be done with his MBA - the time has REALLY flown and his parents are so proud of him for going back and finishing his education and pursuing a masters. It will be exciting to see what the next 5 years holds for us. I'm sure there will be many adventures!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Two Spoiled Dogs Live in This House
Brian is working out in North Platte this week and the dogs and I are on our own. Usually they will sleep through the night for me, although they RARELY offer him that luxury. Last night they decided to push the envelope. At 2:30 Cache woke up and barked for 10 minutes at FULL VOLUME - so we all got up, both dogs went out for a potty break and we marched straight back to bed. No discussion.
At 4 Roo Roo woke up and started whining at full volume then proceeded to throw every single toy and treat out of his kennel in a show of protest. At 4:30 we all got out of bed and went outside. When we came back in we tried chew time but instead Roo Roo decided he would rather bite holes in my socks while I got ready for work. The dogs went back outside while I packed my lunch and Roo Roo practiced his middle of the night howling and barking and refused to come in the house. At 5:30 both dogs went into their kennels with treats and started barking all over again. I hope it was hot enough that everyone has their air on like we do so they didn't wake up the whole neighborhood. Tonight we're going to play outside, and we'll see if my knee is strong enough for a walk to give them some sniffing time. We will have to break the middle of the night socialization and investigation habits so that we can all survive!
At 4 Roo Roo woke up and started whining at full volume then proceeded to throw every single toy and treat out of his kennel in a show of protest. At 4:30 we all got out of bed and went outside. When we came back in we tried chew time but instead Roo Roo decided he would rather bite holes in my socks while I got ready for work. The dogs went back outside while I packed my lunch and Roo Roo practiced his middle of the night howling and barking and refused to come in the house. At 5:30 both dogs went into their kennels with treats and started barking all over again. I hope it was hot enough that everyone has their air on like we do so they didn't wake up the whole neighborhood. Tonight we're going to play outside, and we'll see if my knee is strong enough for a walk to give them some sniffing time. We will have to break the middle of the night socialization and investigation habits so that we can all survive!
Monday, May 13, 2013
A Mother's Day Mud Bath
Our mother's day weekend was a bit of a blur, with homework Friday and Saturday, a scout ride and a beautiful walk Saturday, and church, homework, lunch with family and then a tour of historical homes on Sunday. Sunday during the home tour I slid down a muddy embankment and twisted my knee. Today things are still pretty painful - but we're hoping for the best. We'll see how training goes this week. I had hoped to get a few longer runs in and was planning a bike ride with my mom Tuesday night and some yard work at all three houses.
Monday, May 6, 2013
Spring Training 2013
My recovery after the hernia surgery really hasn't gone the way that I planned. I am finally not tender on a regular basis and feel mostly like myself - so we are back to brick training =) With 7 day a week exercise. I will sadly not be doing the Norfolk triathalon in June but am hoping to do a women's only event in Omaha in August.
Tonight I'm planning a bike ride with my mom and hopefully the weather will cooperate - although I know I should be training in all kinds of weather! I am looking forward to getting in some training time with Erik since he'll be home for the summer in 11 days!
Tonight I'm planning a bike ride with my mom and hopefully the weather will cooperate - although I know I should be training in all kinds of weather! I am looking forward to getting in some training time with Erik since he'll be home for the summer in 11 days!
Monday, March 4, 2013
While Erik is Home
My workouts this week have been about housework - and they have created aches and pains in places I didn't know I had. Friday I got off work REALLY early and spent the morning attacking the clutter and grim in my mom's kitchen. With a little elbow grease, and my handy dandy broom I tackled everything and three hours later had Chinese for lunch and a little nap. Then Brian and I spent the evening finishing finals for this term.
Saturday we got up early for groceries, Erik worked at the Wheelchair Basketball Tournament, I spent another few hours at my mom's dragging garbage out of my old bedroom and sorting through clothes to determine what will be worn again and what can be sent on to the mission. We spent the evening with friends playing Dicecapades - which is HILARIOUS and were only slightly hungover on Sunday morning!
Sunday we spent the day cleaning our house and making Runza's. I'm hoping to get a quick run in tonight and get a few more things done at my mom's house. We are planning some new lighting and a new bathroom ceiling in her basement yet this spring and maybe this summer we'll be able to do new carpet down there for her.
Full time work, full time grad school, training for a tri, taking care of our house, and helping our parents. This isn't exactly what I thought my mid-thirties would look like but I confess it's pretty great!
Saturday we got up early for groceries, Erik worked at the Wheelchair Basketball Tournament, I spent another few hours at my mom's dragging garbage out of my old bedroom and sorting through clothes to determine what will be worn again and what can be sent on to the mission. We spent the evening with friends playing Dicecapades - which is HILARIOUS and were only slightly hungover on Sunday morning!
Sunday we spent the day cleaning our house and making Runza's. I'm hoping to get a quick run in tonight and get a few more things done at my mom's house. We are planning some new lighting and a new bathroom ceiling in her basement yet this spring and maybe this summer we'll be able to do new carpet down there for her.
Full time work, full time grad school, training for a tri, taking care of our house, and helping our parents. This isn't exactly what I thought my mid-thirties would look like but I confess it's pretty great!
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